I'm out of groceries and have been trying to muster the courage to go shopping all morning. I don't know why shopping is so difficult...being out around other people. I was able to go to my AA meetings Monday & yesterday for the first time in a month, but I know everyone there. Even so, I didn't feel comfortable. I wish I could shake this paranoia. I'm only like this during episodes. Yesterday my girlfriend asked me why I was so angry...but I'm not angry about anything in particular. I think I'm getting "mixed signals."