Ethers, what struck me most was the notion that you would be labeled a slut by your Mom because she suspected sexual activity between you and your father. What sort of twisted mind would blame a ten year old girl for sex with her father?
I can relate to a part of your story. As a boy I sat at the dinner table and listened to my father and brothers talk about how all gays should be put on an island and it should be nuked. All the while, I sat there knowing I'd been sexual with other males. They were talking about me and my little heart sank.
And yet, I was no more responsible for what was happening than you were.
You've never posted anything here that would indicate you've behaved in a sexually immoral or reckless way so please go easy on yourself. Sex is a normal need that you have a right to fill and it does not make you a slut.
Be safe.
Cyran0
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Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse.
Meds: Zoloft, Lorazapam, Coffee, Cigarettes
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