. . .But, mostly what helped me was to gradually develop my own perspective and my own voice. I did a ton of reflecting and journaling and introspecting and I tried my best to express the things I was feeling, even if came with a lot of anxiety and even if it ended how it did. It was painful, the pain never goes away, but it does get further behind me on the horizon and at the very least I did learn a lot. I'm still learning a lot. I tried further therapy but for me it wasn't helpful, in fact I only got worse as long as I continued that. With the right therapist it potentially could have been helpful, I just couldn't find a good fit for me. Personally I believe there's elements of truth in everything, every experience, every story, and what I've been doing is just piecing those together to find what is true for me. That's what has helped the most.