Hey VO...What kind of therapy are you in? Do you guys just talk? Like is it relationship based? Do you guys do DBT? CBT? I think you can be helped. To me you just seem quite young, and emotionally out of control a little (I was, too, at your age). It also seems like you struggle with relationships. But that doesn't mean you will struggle your whole life. I struggled with my roommates my junior year in college. Living at home for me was a godsend senior year. Anyway...I think you should take it one day at a time. It takes time to get better and to get the right help. Don't judge yourself for having seen 5 therapists and not being able to get the right help. That sounds hard, both being frustrated (makes sense) and then also being critical of that fact. Judging ourselves is kind of a natural thing too! What do you like to do? What sincerely enjoy, that is healthy? Do you know? Do more of those things. Sometimes I see you on here and I see you triggered and argumentative. I think you make good points! I also think that your delivery could be put in a gentler, kinder, or at least more assertive way. I think you'll get there, in terms of your recovery. Be patient with yourself.