Echoes, It hurts! BUT take my word for it, in a month or 2 down the road, you will think about this situation what is going on now and feel so much stronger. You will even be glad that this situation no longer has the hold on you. That you will see just how imprisoned you were by it, becasuse your greatest fear was always in your mind, now you've had to face it, and you are still going to survive. Take my word for it! you will be free in a whole new way!