VO,
Regarding your words on your last post about your opportunistic nature pulling you down or the glass is not full enough.

If that's the way you feel about being opportunistic perhaps that is not the right path you should follow. Do things that fill that cup enough for you...things you feel passionate about. Do the things that feed your soul, that help you to feel good. Start that gratitude journal so you have a minute or two of positive thought. Initially this could be a challenge especially if you're really down. The first week you might only be grateful you saw a beautiful flowering tree...and that might seem like "diddly squat" to you but it is a beginning and an important one. I also think DBT could be helpful to you in learning distress tolerance ie. skills to get you through the hard times.

I have learned in life that good things take effort and perseverance and don't fall from the sky in front of you. You have to be willing to do "the work" and pay your dues no matter what that may be. There are no short cuts in life but that doesn't mean every day be full of negativity. Some times even in small way we need to change our thought process, in how we are going to view a certain issue, not always easy but sometimes the alternative is worse. In the midst of a thunderstorm I can find something good. It wasn't always like that, but I can easily access the good now. Hope some of what I have written is at least worth reflecting on.