okay t,
I don't get it. And I am too afraid of being told to go away to ever ask. But here goes. You are out of town. I email you about a disturbing event involving my child. You offer a phone call or face time.

I am not nearly as unstable with Tuesday's event as I was during my most recent deep depressive episode. But then, when I asked for an extra session, I just got, no no appts available. But no offer for phone call.

Do you only offer phone calls when you are out of town? After the rejection of not getting an extra session, do I need to further shame myself by asking for a phone call? I've never asked for a phone call but you have offered. I almost wonder if I need to take up on on the offer to get permission to ask in the future.

The episode on Tuesday was upsetting but I feel like I have things under control and don;t need the extra support now.

It is all so confusing. My fear of rejection is so strong that it holds me back from asking a question in a space a generally feels is safe.