I commend you for reaching out. It suggests you feel deserving of something better than this.

Someone mentioned Mindfullness - which my understanding is about 'being in the moment'. My pdoc would say in response to my feeling I was watching from the ceiling to imagine myself crawling down and literally grounding myself. Just a thought.

It will take some time for the medication situation to iron itself out. My wishes are that you come out a new and happy you.