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Originally Posted by Nemii
Thank you for your blunt honesty. I can't promise I'll do it, but I am the type of person who needs a good kick in the rear to get moving sometimes.
I am afraid of his reaction, but I'm more fearful that I'm not strong enough to be alone anymore.
I am so ashamed that I'm letting my life crumble, that my kids are growing up in the same toxic relationships I grew up in. It's hard to admit I've made a mistake.
I am very sorry that I've been whinning, thank you for sticking it out.
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don't apologize for posting that you are in a terrible situation it's not whining.
you are not the one to be ashamed. Sure you're not perfect but all of this rides on his shoulders in the area of responsibility. it's his fault and his offense alone.
you may feel like you are fearful and like you can't do it but a lot of that is that you've lived under an oppressive hand that invalidates and calls you weak over and over. You're stronger than you might think and making the first move is the hardest.
At the very least make the call. I have. the hotlines are manned by people that truly understand and are knowledgeable. That alone may help you to realize that you CAN have a way out.