I don't know if it's age appropriate, but I've met plenty of older people that have climbed mountains, rocks to get good views of surrounding mountains. Half the life of half the people that live here is based on it. I don't think climbing a roof to see a lake better is much different. I haven't really been in that area in a while because that park is full of kids doing drugs now anyways. I've skied with 70-90 year olds, is skiing "age appropriate" for someone of that age just because most people at that age are in nursing homes, underground, or scattered bits of ash on the beach? Are they manic?

On the other hand, I did break 3 traffic laws before 9am today and got yelled at by my family for not filtering every word I say. I don't think that's too different from baseline me though, but that's something I would say to deny mania too. Maybe I'll take my Risperdal tonight and revisit the idea. If I look at my behavior under a microscope I could make an argument for being hypomanic whenever I'm not "tired depressed," which is never because I always get "irritable depressed."

I don't necessarily think having a little bit of fun is mania if it doesn't hurt anyone, but I am on very few meds, the snow is almost melted, days are getting longer, and the weather is getting...less snowy (prime mania time) so I will definitely keep a closer eye on potentially developing mood elevation.

But now I'm thinking in circles... Definitely not manic -> but then I'm not sleeping -> but I haven't slept well in a decade so that's normal for me -> but I haven't been this productive in a while -> but that's just a lack of depression -> ad infinitum

Okay, okay. Just gonna take the PRN later, admit I can't be sure right now, and keep an eye on things, maybe look for a new group to go to. Has anyone been to emotions anonymous?

Now I think I'm hypomanic. I already wrote a lot and just deleted like 3 paragraphs that would prove I'm not at baseline and maybe that's a sign, but I didn't post it and expect people to read it and think I'm a God so maybe that's a sign I'm okay (This is why I'm not manic->this is why I'm manic...)

Alright, I'm just gonna hit post before this gets bad again.