Sorry,
I couldn't resist some humor. I just re-read the second to the last paragraph and thought of the Grinch. I apologize if you are not in the mood for laugher today. I really do hope you feel better, not sure how to convey that with the intended sincerity online --I know may sounds stupid but I really think of you as a cyber friend and just want to reach out an hug you today. I guess that's why they included the smilies feature.. hear ya go..
"How could it be so?"
"It came with out ribbons! It came with out tags!"
"It came with out packages, boxes or bags!"
And he puzzled three hours, til his puzzler was sore.
Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before!

"Maybe Christmas," he thought, "doesn't come from a store."
"Maybe Christmas...perhaps...means a little bit more!"