Today we talked about how bad my thoughts of suicide were getting.

I think he was quite worried I might do something stupid.
I kept saying I'd want to say good bye to him if I decided to do it. T kept asking what he should do if that happened, but I didn't know. He told me that if I let him, he'd call a hospital to admit me and we'd figure out how I get there, he'd not let me go alone. But he is not legally allowed to detain me and force me to go to a hospital. I promised that I'd always tell him before doing something stupid, and that I'd let him admit me if it were to come to that. In return he promised to still see me after that, and that at most we couldn't see for a week or two. I forgot to ask him whether I could at least call him once, I think I'll do that next time. He promised he'd trust me if I ever said I didn't need to be admitted. He also said he'd care if I died, which was nice to hear.

I feel a bit bad I mentioned that I was scared he'd abandon me like 5 or 10 minute before the end of the session. But we still managed to more or less talk about it. He told me to call him in case things get worse before we see each other again.