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Originally Posted by BudFox
Why do it then? It was the most dysfunctional and degrading thing i have ever done. I let my equilibrium and sense of self be dictated by the strongly biased opinions of a series of strangers whose dictums were baseless in the end. Plus, it perpetuated the core problem... seeking external validation from false gurus.
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Well, other than the ending ( ... "But other than that, how did you like the play Mrs. Lincoln?"), I found therapy with my ex T to be extremely helpful.
And now I am in a place where I'm crying all the time, have social anxiety and feelings of shame, and am driving outside town to run errands wherever possible (like the grocery store 15 minutes away instead of 5 minutes) out of fear of running into ex T. And none of this is improving. So, I'm trying this out because therapy has helped me before and honestly I don't know what else to do.
I get validation from a lot of places, some from myself but a lot from friends and loved ones. And definitely from this forum, in the past month! But I thought that getting some acceptance from a T might be particularly useful to help with being shunned by a T. Kind of like fighting fire with fire.