You did not mention if you have seen someone or if you are currently in therapy. You
know the lingo and have done some research, obviously; but beware of buying into
whatever theory is currently popular. The truth is that DID is a singular phenomenon
and displays widely varient symptoms in each individual.
It is not my place to give you any opinion resembling a diagnosis. I have been DID for
45 years, but recently gained control and have lived as a single entity for 16 months.
There are a couple of things I can tell you. Only another multiple can begin to understand
this disorder. Most people can't even process it. Just because you don't remember any abuse
Doesn't mean there wasn't. Most of us are brilliant and gifted. I also write and I am an
artist. DID is a burden but it is also a gift. We are hard wired for survival in a way few
others are.
You are in a dangerous place right now and I urge you to seek professional help. There is great medication out there now and though you are exceptionally bright, you can't do this on your own. You may send me a private message if you feel I can be of help.
Flower