Thanks Perna and Muffy!! I appreciate you replying to my rambled thoughts I like doing that too Muffy btw, and i also find it relaxing to write out lyrics whilst listening to songs...it can be comforting.

So i went to my appt with my mum and it went a lot better than expected. I've gotta say the pdoc was totally inhuman most of the time lol. I'm sure she is a robot! But then suddenly for a second...humanity! Wow, i think i just saw a glimmer of some feelings there! haha. Mum and I had to laugh at this after, there really are some awful drs out there - apologies to any drs reading this!

But still i felt it went ok, i told her about the up and down periods and she said if it happens again increase the dose, but she doubts it will - yippee!! She says that from now on i shouldn't have a prolonged low period....gosh i hope she is right. I'm in a really positive mood so i'm imagining it is! Wow can you imagine that i may be writing this post as the first day of the rest of my life without depression. Wow.

Yeh you may have guessed i'm a black and white thinker. When things are good everything will be perfect i always think. I can't see any negatives today! I feel my blood is rushing round my body...haha i think i'm very hyper and excited by the appt today!

Please pray that this is the start of the end of a very long road for me. Does that make sense??