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Originally Posted by yagr
Maybe not, but it was nice not to hear, "The two are totally different. They are easy to tell apart." Can't imagine why people think that is helpful - "Yes, you've got issues, physical, mental...oh, and you're kind of stupid too if you can't tell the difference." So thank you for not saying that. 
I'm not good with feeling subtle differences, particularly with my body. I referenced the ASD in my OP, but the dissociative disorder doesn't help either I'm sure - I learned to ignore what was happening to my body and mind since I was an infant. I'm good at it. |
Dissociative disorders do really make it hard. From my upbringing, I became hyperaware of what was going on with my emotions and used it almost as an escape from actual fact. Because the emotion (or often the lack thereof) is still easier for me to handle than the actual facts of what transpired. In truth, though, all it takes is a one strong negative emotion and dissociation takes over and then figuring out what's going on becomes a nightmare, so I don't even try. I think the reason I can (for the most part) recognize when my depression is mostly absent is because I no longer feel like myself. I don't know if that makes sense.
And, yeah, I know how it feels to have somebody tell you that stuff. It's not always so easy, like they say. Yes, there are days where depression is slapping me in the face. There are also days like today, where my symptoms more resemble that my cancer has relapsed rather than I'm depressed. I'm actually having to go get scans done on the 16th and my anxiety is up about that. With coinciding depression, I genuinely can't tell what's actually wrong with me.