Money stresses me out so bad. It makes me anxious and I can't think about anything else anymore. I know worrying won't make it any better, I just can't distract myself.

I'm scared that I will screw up my finance and end up with serious problems. That's not even a realistic fear yet. I wish I could get rid of these thoughts. I should be avoiding too much stress, but how can you avoid stress when everything makes you stressed? I mean, talking to strangers makes me stressed, making phone calls are the worst thing ever. I feel like a disappointment because some normal things make me way too anxious.

I'm trying to tell myself I am doing better, but I have no clue if I'm just lying to myself.