I can relate to your story.
Like my pdoc says, I used to run on all 8 cylinders and now I try to get by on 4 cylinders.
I also feel I am slipping in every arena, including keeping house.
I, too, have been on meds since my teens, with only short breaks. I was able to get off meds for 2-3 years when I'd had access to an excellent M.D. specializing in orthomolecular medicine. Still_crazy knows a lot about that approach!
My meds are minimal right now. What I've found? I am very affected by C-PTSD; it's very uncomfortable.
I keep trying!
I am glad you've checked in, I was wondering if you were doing okay. After your recent hospitalization for a severe medical issue, was concerned something was up.

WC