Hi samj40,
I am glad you feel you can be yourself and can reach out online.
If you feel like things are moving too slow, could you express this to your gender therapist?
Are you under 18 y.o.? I ask only because sometimes things go very slow for people under 18 y.o., as far as transitioning goes.
I am very concerned about the level of dysphoria you are experiencing.

Have me made this clear to your gender specialist?
keep reaching out!

WC