Are you still gone with your parents ?
Yes
If so why even bother being there? I'm like this anywhere. They seem not to mind. It's me that minds almost to the point of tears. I'm like this anywhere. At home, here, everywhere. That's why I was good at the front table at co-op. I didn't talk forever like other people do.

Do you think this is depression (hence the Celexa)? I'm hoping it's depression but I've been like this for so long I have no idea. I'm not suicidal but I really don't care what happens to me.

It sounds like it might be excess zyprexa or that zyprexa isn't working well for you. Is that possible? It's possible but with the desolvable meds I take them. There's not very many desolvable meds. I don't want off of zyprexa because it took my eating disorder away. of course I'm now 50 lbs over weight. I'm only on 10 mg. The first time I was hospitalized I was on 10 mg. So I can't safely go on less. It could be the Zyprexa though. I still live with low level of psychosis because I can't stand the higher level. I get twitches at night. It wakes me up on higher levels.

I'm worried this is just a negative symptom of schizophrenia and that I'm stuck like this forever. I really liked the abilify shot and may have to move clinics just to get that if an AD doesn't help.

How long have you been on the zyprexa and have you had any recent dose changes? A year maybe longer. I'm down to seeing the pdoc 3x a year. He added ambien two visits ago. Since I've leaned I can abuse it to be a nicer more talk be closer to how I was when stable.