Life has been Ok for the about the last week, once I came out of my hypomania.
I am still having trouble in the sleep area but am on the fence with it. I sleep more towards the morning hours and want to stay in bed till like one.
This is not what my P and T want.
Over the last few months I feel like I am getting to understand this BP stuff. Than the shat hits the fan.
I feel like a failure reasons of:
sleep issues
I feel like my husband hates me, and I try to please him
I do not work
I have a hard time with house stuff
Hubby goes silent
I cancel plans a lot

I am weak when it gets tough, I want to bail on life and I do not how to explain that , I am little depressed but yet I still do not want to live. I guess cause I can see my failures and understand them. I am a living breathing no purpose to be here blob.