it was confusing with her raising her voice and all .but she was crying because she wanted to help me and didnt know how to reach me and she doesnt want me to keep killing myself. she said she cares about me and it is breaking her heart . she has not expressed ever how much she cares about me . i know a lot of clients get upset because T wont say they care about them . to me it was never a big deal . but she was so upset about everything . she must care .