Yes, I have very strong maternal transference for my t. At first I thought it was a crush, more like erotic transference but then I realised its more maternal.
T and I have never discussed thiS about her but we did discuss it about another t I had whom I had a very strong erotic transference for.
Sometimes I think my t feels safer when it’s about other people and if I told her about my really strong desires she would freak out.
I have talked about my attachment to her a lot and how sometimes when I ring her, there is no one else I can ring and she doesn’t mind, she is always glad I reached out to her.
I imagine what it would be like if t was my mom and we could go shopping together and for lunch and on holidays- all the things I never did with my own mom and sometimes it breaks my heart because I know that I will never have a mom like that.