Thanks, almedafan. You and your T sound so close that you can discuss that you would like to be his friend. He sounds like he respects and handles the fantasy really well.

I don't want to be my T's friend outside of therapy. I guess my fantasy is much tamer--I wish he could be my therapist forever, once a week, year after year. I would be very happy with that. I would not want to be his friend outside of therapy because I think that would impinge on or alter our therapeutic relationship, with which I am very happy!

Today something really funny happened to me, and of all the people I know, my T would appreciate it best. I can picture telling him about it and our laughing together. I think I miss him today.