Thanks Perna for giving me some examples of a relationship that benefits and enriches both people. I think some of my problem is I don't really know first hand what a good relationship is. As much as I tried to protect myself and avoid repeating my mother's mistake.. I ended up in the exact same type of marriage. The only difference is my mother had divine help to help her cope.

I liked the strength projected in your previous post. And I also liked hearing that I may not be the one with the problem.

Sister, good, restorative sex would be nice. Unfortunately I would have to pay for that too. I should have chosen a male T, at least I could at least have transference fantasies.