Hey guys. I'm back and turning 18 soon. I'm surely still a complete mess who won't seek therapy. It's definitely gotten much worse.

I frequently think about dying, but I'm not suicidal. I'm constantly in an existential crisis. Constantly living in my head. Severely self-conscious to the point of freaking out.

This has caused me problems with socializing (which I've already had my whole life), avoidance issues, and yep. Depression. Total irritation. Indifference. You can tell by my body language at this point. Not looking people in the eye, my slouchiness/lazy way of walking, anxiously looking around. I feel like I'm just flinging my body around through life lol.