You've got a wonderful imagination and I knew a girl who was just like you, dancing naked with hints of perversion. She one day asked me to paint her face at ~2am. I feel for her hard that night/morning.

Well, time passed by and before I knew it, I was wearing her FM-boots.

Latter on, I find out that she's bipolar and had difficulty ...well at that time I was always depressed and I knew absolutely nothing about mental health. I'm going back 20 years ago...

But I tell you now. I've never seen someone so happy to just be themselves. Not only did I have a tough decision to make if I should leave my "perfect" girlfriend and ask her out instead....

Anyway, we didn't ever have sex. Sure we talked a lot and fell asleep together on her floor (long story) more than once, but she inspired my whole attitude towards intimacy.

And in my own way, I still have feelings for her.

Dammit. I've done it again. For some baffling reason , I've managed to forget the topic and made it about me.

Sir, Mr, Friend. Nothing's wrong with that. In my honest and humbly lack of sleep and barely functioning opinion.

OK, I'll try to be useful. Do you keep arousal diaries ? What I mean is, when you notice any type of shift, do you keep notes? Why limit a diary just for moods a dep?!

You spoke last week sometime that you stopped talking something that scared you off them, for reasons I remember.