Dear T,
I hate that I'm so scared to trust your caring. For example, that you seem very invested about whether I get into that PhD program. Part of me thinks, "Yay, you really care!" Especially because, in the beginning, I didn't get that sort of warm and fuzzy feeling that I get from you now. I just figured you were more detached as a therapist in general (which I thought maybe could be a good thing?). But then...it seems now like you genuinely care about me as a person (not just as a source of income). And are being fairly open about that care. Which feels good. Then part of me thinks, "But what if you take it away?" And figures it's only a matter of time till you become sick of dealing with me...

I suspect this is mostly coming from ex-MC. I guess this is something we need to talk about...
Love you,
LT