I’m not good at the whole self control thing. Once I start drinking I tend to not want to stop until I pass out.

I know, rationally, alcohol is not good. But I get stuck in the moment and it seems like the answer. The only answer.

I am self destructive by nature, and alcohol seems like the healthiest bad habit I have right now.

But for now, I am just trying to convince myself tonight I have had enough. It’s hard, I can’t guarantee I’ll succeed, but I’m trying. That’s something right?