Hey DP, I’m sorry you’re hurting. I sort of know how this feels. Although my T hasn’t openly rejected me, I know that If I were to voice some of my longing to him, he would. So I don’t voice it because there’s no point. I know that him upholding professional boundaries would feel like rejection to me even if it may not be intended that way.

I think there’s no easy way to deal with this. Accepting how things are and not longing for more is easier said than done, but sometimes it’s the only way to find some peace. I try to tell myself that my relationship with T is as perfect as it can be in the circumstances I was given—wishing for more is pointless because even if he were to give me more, it wouldn’t be the same. Longing can sometimes blind us so much so that we forget to look at what’s already there.