Ya like I said, I'm not bringing it up. I know it's a pointless idea.

I'm used to rejection, story of my life. It's why I prefer dogs to people and likely always will. It's why I won't ever allow myself to be close to anyone again, this is way too much. Not fun or useful in the slightest.

Just frustrating but hopefully someday I'll end up hating him and it will stop my mind