My boyfriend and I have been very happy together over the last few months.

Well, lately things have gone awry, not between us, but for us. I was hearing sinister voices for a few weeks out of the seemingly blue (I am on meds for this), and then he broke his toe on Sunday and is in sheer agony yet has to run around all day at work.

I feel absolutely horrible because he was moving my broken desk. It was a large piece of wood that fell on his foot. Now he can barely work, yet he has to, and I feel like it's my fault because it was my stupid desk.

And I feel like every time I'm about to be happy, something bad happens to ruin it. I know it's easy to think that the universe is against you, but well, when this happens over & over again, I cannot help but feel like it is. Like some force out there doesn't want me or won't allow me to be fully happy. Like my happiness is fleeting.....

I feel so badly he is in so much pain. It pains me to see him hurting like this. I cannot feel good or happy when he is in so much pain. UGH.

Why can't the universe just allow me to be happy????