I'm not really in therapy for any issues anymore, just to be with him. Wether or not its stupid is no one else's choice or business. My life is really **** outside the session, so having that 1 hr a week to make me happy is healing for me. I'll keep paying for it, stupid or not, it's my money

I wont bring it up even in that sense, because it comes off as me being dense or something and not getting it. I'm not wanting to annoy him.

The only thing I can really do is try to create a distance, and work on changing the loving feelings more to anger or hate. I'm good at that, I do it all the time with people. So I just need to create that distance and I should be ok. Thanks though,just kind of a stuck situation for me since talking or quitting are not options for me right now.

Anyway I'll be seeing him later, so at least I'll have 1 good happy hour to look forward to this week