It's been 14 years ago that I was diagnosed with bipolar. It's been a long journey and it's taken a toll on my mental and physical well-being. I've don't even remember how it feels to be normal, much less well. I've been on so many drug combos, a lot of which just haven't worked. I feel so beaten down by this disease and life in general. Sometimes I feel like I just don't have the strength to go on.