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Originally Posted by cryingontheinside
These thoughts of self hate are too intense . I feel like I don't deserve to live because I am so useless and pathetic . What use can I be to anybody when I can't even help myself get out of the trap I'm stuck in ? When I die I'll probably go straight to hell because I don't deserve to go to heaven as I'm so useless .
My brother told my mum that depression is selfish . I don't know what he meant but I do wonder if it's my fault I'm depressed , maybe it's easier to stay depressed than to fight through it . But I have no fight in me . I don't know what to do anymore. If only I could get a sign from God that I'm not alone , that he cares , that there's hope . Or maybe he has given up on me like I gave up on myself
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I care about you. I think like you at times when my depression and panic attacks get too severe, my body hurts and feels too heavy and I can't get out of bed the whole day.
Maybe you can give me encouragement. Please don't give up. If I see you giving up I may want to give up on me too. We can do it together. And depressed people are not selfish.
Did you take the help of any psych doc and/or therapist? Meds may give you the initial push.
Love to you.
