I think that part of why you might hate where you are living, is because you feel you were forced to move there. Being unhappy with where we are is common, I think, but also can be a state of mind. There is good and bad in every state and every city, I can promise you that having travelled through most of the US.

We can't allow ourselves to say "the best times are over". Life is a rollercoaster, for sure. It is very unpredictable. None of us know what the future holds. I know you talked about your daughter growing up, and it's true. She is. But she is only 10. You still have the rebellious teen years and scaring hopeful boyfriends away with a shotgun phase to look forward to. You still have her getting married to look forward to, and you having grandchildren. Your life is certainly not over, and you still have a lot to look forward to.

I think that keeping your diabetes under control is the first step. If you feel physically healthier, your mind will start to feel healthier too. We all need a support network, too. Especially since it seems your wife isn't that for you. If you could find a way to meet some new people and gain some new friends, I think that'd help a lot. Try to think of a hobby you have that could allow you to be more social, even something simple like going and playing bingo or something lol. Or, you could still take your daughter to parks or go to the movies or what have you.

Hobbies are great, because they give us something to continue to live for. I have a very simple hobby of playing games. You said that seems superficial to you, but I never see it that way. It's something I enjoy, so it's worth it to me. I also am very close to the few friends I have, and I enjoy going out to eat with them or to the movies or even travelling. You don't have to enjoy those same things, but you should try to find something you do enjoy that gets you up every morning.

Lastly, I would say that you need to have a heart to heart with your wife. You really need to discuss with her how you feel, and see if she is open to maybe going to therapy with you and doing couple's counseling. If she refuses, and she continues to ignore your wants, needs, and desires; then maybe you need to break away from that and get a divorce. I know that sounds drastic, but we all deserve to be happy. Just because you are in your late 40's, doesn't mean your life is over or that you are trapped there with your wife for the rest of your life. You have to find yourself, and you need a partner who supports that.