My husbands ex after 18 years of marriage decided she was gay, obviously why they divorced.

She has traumatized there boys , all 3 needed counseling. They are now adults and have moved on thankfully but scars remain.

I know the gym is your go to thing to help keep going but maybe you really need a break ? Your pushing yourself maybe past the breaking point physically ? If physically your wiped out emotionally and mentally your going to be just as bad.

How is Therapy helping you ? Maybe if your not moving forward a change in Therapy is needed?

Sending you many hugs

I hope you can catch your breath and decompress.