It's hard. We're the ****ed up family on both sides. We can't keep house, even though we don't work. We home school our kid, who has issues too. We're not good hosts. I'm both a high school drop out and a college drop out. My husband once again is trying college. I'm hoping this time it's not to much for him. We struggle with money even though his mom helps us. We're a wreck. We had our son young 18 & 20 because we thought we could rock parenthood and college. We had dreams, goals but we were both unstable. (We knew we had issues but felt it was teenager stuff. We were both doing well. We were both manic at the time.) We had a two bedroom everything included costing us 1/3 our income. So we though we had everything covered and decided to have a child. We gave up our home when I decided to go to FL to go to school. We had nothing there and have struggled since. Countless places for a while we were moving every 6 months or so, in different state. We've been homeless several times but to proud to admit it. We're finally settled on a home through sect. 8 but feel awful using the system. I was the driven child. I was the most likely to succeed. I was not the one they were suppose to worry about. Here I am unstable, living off assistance, "drug addict" (bipolar meds) with a husband who "wont" work, that's also a "drug addict" (again bipolar meds). If I'd just get my life together I wouldn't be so unhappy and wouldn't have to rely on drugs.

All my cousins have good jobs making tons of money and are just starting families at 30-ish. My husband's brother is married with 4 Healthy children, a beautiful wife that keeps house, great job, but he's a jerk. His sister works her *** off but she can keep house, is a super mom, raising 2 kids and has a wonderful boyfriend. My older sister is more like me but she wont get help. My younger sister works her *** off and sees us as lazy and doesn't agree the "system" should be helping us.