kiya... you will get to the place of looking at those issues... and you have such a head start on me... it's hard work... i think we have to revisit them at different times in our life... i am finding out that when i should have looked at them and chose to ignore them... made them turn into monsters.

i am in a little different place right now...but remember that place well... i have started to deal with the issues...but it seems that as soon as i start to get some clarity... something happens and i can't get to that place of healing... the immediate crisis takes precedence and i have to stuff all the feelings and new found reality into a box and place it on a shelf in my brain... leaving me in a harder place... i never get to process the information, look at what happened and place the responsibility where it belongs... i don't know if that makes sense...in my head i know the truth...but in my heart it's all still tangled up... not sure if that makes any sense...lyn