Gay would have been an easy out I wish she'd taken, but it wasn't the case. She chose abuse and neglect. I was ready to die to be free of her. I feel like I imagine a beat horse feels on the same farm when I'm around her.
I didn't go to the gym. I did go for a stroll, easy and slow and only a few blocks. I wound up at a friend's house I haven't seen in a long time. I got to catch up and even fixed her computer while I was there. I'm the guy that always fixes computers and some of just about anything.
All our kids had and probably all still need counseling as adults.
My therapist is perfect for me. The stuff we disagree on proves he's on the side of what is right, not who. I see him tomorrow. I'm always nervous to see him because he almost always has me face something I don't want to but absolutely need to. I always leave feeling like something's not resolved, but pointed in the right direction.
I did get a few hugs from my friend and loved on her doggy a while too. My mind is still at 110% on at almost midnight but my appointment isn't until after afternoon. It's not like I have a job to go to.
I've been watching "chappie" for the first time and realized that sometimes there's no good solution to bad people ruining the innocent.
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Originally Posted by ~Christina
My husbands ex after 18 years of marriage decided she was gay, obviously why they divorced.
She has traumatized there boys , all 3 needed counseling. They are now adults and have moved on thankfully but scars remain.
I know the gym is your go to thing to help keep going but maybe you really need a break ? Your pushing yourself maybe past the breaking point physically ? If physically your wiped out emotionally and mentally your going to be just as bad.
How is Therapy helping you ? Maybe if your not moving forward a change in Therapy is needed?
Sending you many hugs
I hope you can catch your breath and decompress.
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