Today, your desire to make the political point that even though the # me too movement is complex for me( as a person I trusted is accused in the media and a childhood history ) , it is going to make the world safer and more wonderful for your daughter overrode your desire to be therapeutic . I wasn't looking to have a political debate or discussion of how even though my life was touched by male violence, that your daughter will be more safe and that is worth it. I don't disagree with the point, not at all. Altruistically, I do care that the world is safe for girls once our generation has passed away. Sometimes, rarely but impactingly, you let your cards show. You don't have much skin in the game with your patients, you are pretty detached but you have excellent skills, techniques, and you are quite brilliant in your Ivy League accolade way. Very sharp analytical thinking. But do you care? You care about your family, and I even believe you care about your career/ private practice / work. I don't think you care about me though as a person. Maybe you got carried away by your own fervor for the politics of our times, and didn't mean to give a lecture on why my feelings are wrong , "educating" me on how to view what women have suffered in the past as well worth it if it means men are called on the carpet now, and thus the world is wonderful for your little girl. I didn't talk back, and the session ended after a prolonged dose of your viewpoint. I just wonder, do you fake your empathy for my past encounter with violence, and accidentally dropped your mask, or are you genuinely empathetic usually, and today got carried away by your inner know-it-all I was the smartest kid in my class desire to have the last word( or 1000 words). Can I trust you? Is there any you, or is your therapist hat more like putting a cardboard box over your head, concealing your true identity? Do you have secret contempt, countertransference, or feel defensive as a male therapist treating female trauma victims/ survivors( you say "patients"). I dint know the answers to these questions, but you help me put the puzzle pieces of my experience together, and you are a good psychologist. Today, you weren't though.
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Living things don’t all require/ light in the same degree. Louise Gluck
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