((golden_eye)), it's understandable you would worry about something "bad" happening. You have had a lot of dysfunctional relationships and these relationships turned out badly and you were probably blamed too. It's only natural you would "anticipate" and worry in that you have been experiencing such a positive in this relationship that something bad will happen.

When you hear these voices are they basically in your mind? Or, do you experience them as though a real person is talking to you? The reason I ask that is that with PTSD and a history of "abuse" a person can hear voices "in their mind" that are typically things toxic and abusive individuals have said to them. In a way it's more of a flashback than an actual hallucination as what someone with schizophrenia may experience.