Hey everyone,

Over three years ago I went through a horrible set of circumstances in the healthcare system. I was traumatized by unethical and corrupt healthcare professionals. For the next three years I would seek out help from the same industry despite being very fearful and traumatized. I was retraumatized by every individual therapist I had seen long term. They had brutalized me...

I can see a pattern here. What is it, and why is it happening? The answer is very complex and I did nothing to deserve this treatment, however, I wondered if there was something else going on... Something subconscious. Despite being scared of therapy and the healthcare system, I was drawn to go back. Something kept bringing me back and it wasn't just because I was wanting to heal...

Then I read something about the, "repetition compulsion."

Found here:

https://www.themeadows.com/blog/item...th-of-bullying


Can anyone else relate to this!?

Thanks,
HD7970ghz