Hi...sometimes...I feel so uncared about. I know I'm supposed to self care. I do it. It's so lonely though. Literally caring for myself because no one else would care. Or because I don't want to be a bother, to cause worry in others.

Why don't I ever have the courage and fool hardiness to just cut deep...even with SH, I'm "good" by being so safe. No one cares. No one gives a **** unless things are serious and bad enough. Everything mild gets dismissed. Sometimes I wish so bad the pain can be seen.