Yes, it is true they didn't know the whole plan of God.

However, they had a hard time believing what was told to them by the Lord. I know we live by the spirit and we are challenged to live our lives holy unto the Lord.

I am not trying to make excuses, I am being honest when I say that my particular journey is a great and trying struggle.
I'm also not trying to be a martyr and have a woe is me attitude. Living for God is not easy and every time I fall I get up and ask for forgiveness wondering when the next it happens will I die in it? I know it will happen again.
I remember Paul when he asked God to remove his thorn in the flesh, God told him "my grace is sufficient for thee..."
Paul was able to glory in his infirmity. I should be so inclined.

Anyway, this is a long and thought provoking study and I am being honest with you all. It isn't easy and I struggle daily.

Last night I had a dream about an old pastor friend of mine.
He was the only man of God that truly was a non judgemental friend. He knew my struggle with unbelief and remained my friend untill his death at age 75. I cannot tell you how much I miss him. In my dream I was moving to Arizona to be with him, I woke up with tears in my eays and said to my wife, I miss James. She knew why and he has been gone for 10 years. She hugged me and said "I know."

Pray for me.