I could feel it all again. The tingling in my legs and feet, the dull paralyzing pain in the middle of my spine. I was barely able to breathe and I was panicking. Not the type someone can see and comfort but the inwards kind. The lonely kind. There was no comfort. If there was, I couldn't hear it over my own heartbeat. I swore I was paralyzed for good. I unintentionally kept twitching, each one causing another surge of pain to consume my body.

I've had this same flashback for years but have never once been able to remember anything else about it. Until today, I was only in pain as my vision was pitch black. Today, my eyes were open and I was in a car. I feel like I was being driven somewhere for some reason. I still feel the pain in my back right now. I'm so tired of being in pain like this. I just need it to stop.