Thank you all so much!!!
I got a prescription for beta blockers for the panic attacks and back into another bout of therapy.

I think I just feel angry at the fact that I can't keep it together when I need to the most.. as a mother it's so important to me that my children grow up in a healthy home so don't end up with the same issues I do..

I am feeling much better this evening and am putting my health as a priority so I don't slip like this again.

Thank you for the support, it means a lot! Xx