Had a most enlightening session with t this evening! Holy smokes. I don't know how in the world we got on the subject of my marriage but whatev. My issues with intimacy came to the forefront especially where h is concerned.

Anyway! The fun part. I told her about the dream where she and I were sitting together watching her on TV as part of jury, and I told her I'd started writing a story with that dream and in the story each of the jurors are different parts of me (including her) and that I got stuck when it came to what they are deliberating about. So she said let's write it now and got out her drum, and she drummed for awhile and together we 'wrote' the story out loud, at her suggestion the TV became a portal and I went through it and joined the jurors, and they were arguing but I didn't know what about, they looked to me for answers and I said I don't know, she suggested I get to know each of them and so I talked to each of them and they all insisted that yes I did know but I just wouldn't admit that I knew what the deliberations were about. And the juror in the dream that looked like T except her hair was straight and in a ponytail, she was taking notes. But I couldn't see the notes. We went back and forth talking the story and it was pretty cool. Not really a journey per se, just a creative little venture. Anyway after that we talked about the story a little and how I can work with it some more and I said aha each of them holds a piece to the puzzle as it were. Very interesting.

There was so much packed into this hour today I haven't scratched the surface here it seems like. Therapy is a lot more beneficial in a more immediate way now that I don't hem and haw and say "I don't know" for 40 minutes of the hour like I always used to do. We hit the ground running pretty much every session anymore. It's even better now that we have the whole 'romantic feelings' stuff out in the open finally.

Dang the hour goes by too fast.