It was only something like a month ago that you were writing on here saying you were suicidal. I also think you are still SI-ing, aren't you? If you are, that could mean that you still have unresolved issues that need to be worked through. Although you don't like going to the therapist's, at least you get the chance. Somebody on here that I know would love to be able to go but can't afford it. I think you should discuss it with your t and see what she says. She should be able to give you her opinion on whether or not you are ready to leave therapy. You don't have to heed what she says, but you might be able to make a better judgement if you consider what she thinks as well.