I know a lot of us have had some bad experiences with Ts. Does the pain that they cause ever go away? Or is it forever a part of you? Haunting you? I know gets better over time, but for me, I would think 3 years is long enough to let go. Is there anything you have done to help you get past this?

I have found another T and we have talked a lot about it. I tried to get closure directly from T, but that failed. I've gone through my emails and got rid of all the unimportant ones. I've put everything from her in a box and put it in the closet. And I filed a grievance, but that failed too.

I got triggered tonight because I watched an episode of Lethal Weapon, and the therapist on there reminded me of my ex-T. I almost cried. Is it crazy that I still miss her? That I still want to write her to try to get closure? That I still hurt?

Am I ever going to let it go enough to finally trust current T and completely separate the two? I feel like I'm cheating on my T because of my feelings for ex-T.

This thread is NOT meant to bash Ts or therapy in general! If you feel the need to do that, there are other threads about that.